THE DIRTY ARMY: Dear Nik, I am a 17 year old girl with a very rough past which includes loosing my virginity at 14, Developing a drug problem, and having naked pictures sent around my school freshman year. Now I can’t blame this on bad parenting because I come from a wealthy family with good values, for some reason I thought doing blow and having orgy’s at 15 was the cool thing to do. Thankfully I know now that it is completely f*cked up which is why I am writing to you. I discovered your website last summer which really gave me the push to get clean and leave behind all my sl*tty f*cked up friends. Although I am doing a lot better, have good grades, a good relationship with my family, and a healthy life style, I need advice on how to stay on this path. I have no social life because I don’t yet trust myself to say no to drugs and alcohol while I am out. It is also really hard making friends with nice, respectable people or finding a quality boyfriend at my highschool because everybody still remembers me as a sl*tty druggie. I have relapsed twice this year due to this, I feel as if I have no support system, and nobody to turn to. I am a cute girl and should have the world at my fingertips so why can’t I keep it together? I feel as if I am wasting away my teenage years hiding away because I don’t know how to act as a regular person. How can I develop a normal lifestyle away from the sleezy drugs and partying?
Your environment is everything. The more people look at you and whisper, the more pressure you will always be under. Create a new path in a new enviroment. Ask your parents to send you away to a new school and new life. You don’t have demons, you have enablers.- nik