THE DIRTY ARMY: Nik, I rarely get to go on The Dirty anymore because I have been disowned by my family and sleep on whoever’s couch I can each night. I’m currently using a laptop I stole which after writing this email I will go trade it for some heroin because of how bad my addiction is. I had knee surgery when I was 19 and that is when I was introduced to opiates. My doctor just kept on feeding me whatever I wanted, I would just go see her and say my knee was still hurting and she would just keep giving me stronger and stronger meds. Moved on to OxyContin a few months later and currently shoot up around 60 dollars for of heroin daily. I also go to Methadone clinics on any day I can’t get my fix due to how bad my withdraws get. This drug has ruined my whole life, I dropped out of college than started stealing from friends for my fix and got disowned by my parents when I stole all the flat screens from the house and my moms jewelry box in order to score $1,400 worth of heroin which only lasted me 4 days. I don’t know what to do any longer Nik, something is eating my arm from a dirty needle I shot up with and now have to shoot up the veins in my feet or neck because they are the only ones I can located. I have no friends or anyone to turn to and wanted to ask you for help. Would there be anyone you can send me $500 because all I want to do is overdose and end my crappy miserable life, I have no one and if I died no one would really care. Rehab is not an option been there and done that over 10 times. Help me Nik, I just want to end this addiction and death will be the only thing that can save me.
I get a lot of these private emails and after yesterday’s post I thought it would be best if I shared this one. People need to know what drugs do. I received this 6 months ago and I’m proud to say my friend is 4 months sober. As you read this Junior, I just want to say I’m proud of you but we have a long way to go. Also, to the people reading this… it’s okay to ask for help.- nik