Nik, Help Me End My Addiction
THE DIRTY ARMY: Nik, I rarely get to go on The Dirty anymore because I have been disowned by my family and sleep on whoever’s couch I can each night. I’m currently using a laptop I stole which after writing this email I will go trade it for some heroin because of how bad my addiction is. I had knee surgery when I was 19 and that is when I was introduced to opiates. My doctor just kept on feeding me whatever I wanted, I would just go see her and say my knee was still hurting and she would just keep giving me stronger and stronger meds. Moved on to OxyContin a few months later and currently shoot up around 60 dollars for of heroin daily. I also go to Methadone clinics on any day I can’t get my fix due to how bad my withdraws get. This drug has ruined my whole life, I dropped out of college than started stealing from friends for my fix and got disowned by my parents when I stole all the flat screens from the house and my moms jewelry box in order to score $1,400 worth of heroin which only lasted me 4 days. I don’t know what to do any longer Nik, something is eating my arm from a dirty needle I shot up with and now have to shoot up the veins in my feet or neck because they are the only ones I can located. I have no friends or anyone to turn to and wanted to ask you for help. Would there be anyone you can send me $500 because all I want to do is overdose and end my crappy miserable life, I have no one and if I died no one would really care. Rehab is not an option been there and done that over 10 times. Help me Nik, I just want to end this addiction and death will be the only thing that can save me.
I get a lot of these private emails and after yesterday’s post I thought it would be best if I shared this one. People need to know what drugs do. I received this 6 months ago and I’m proud to say my friend is 4 months sober. As you read this Junior, I just want to say I’m proud of you but we have a long way to go. Also, to the people reading this… it’s okay to ask for help.- nik
Also See: Thank You Pharmaceutical Companies For Ruining This Country
Nik, are you a former addict? That is awesome that you are helping these people, I knew deep down you are a good person
No I have never done drugs.- nik
I’m sorry but I just don’t trust Nik. This topic is something I hold dear to my heart and feel tremendous pain for the people who lose their souls to drugs. I don’t understand your all-of-a-sudden interest in helping people like this? You cannot be a bully and care for people at the same time. I hate people who pretend to care.
& don’t deny that it is not all-of-a-sudden. I have been reading this site everyday for how long now? I don’t recall you taking such an interest before … I think I would have noticed you caring before considering I have been an addict, known addicts and helped addicts. You sir have no experience in this area of life. I have had to fight to get back to where I am while others do not survive and live a life of misery. I absolutely hate it when people who are ignorant about this subject go ahead and give their opinion. What do you have to offer? Some advice? How could you possibly even give advice if you cannot relate? What, you heard some stories or watched Intervention? I told you before Nik, you are soft.
Sorry, I am just getting emotional. Maybe you have friends or family members who are addicts. Please don’t spring such an important topic when majority of this website is based on making fun of people.
Nik, it is hard for me to believe anything you say because you claim to be an honest person but I have analyzed this website and I feel you are a bit shady. I am sorry to say this but I have never trusted you. I want to like you because you do have some good traits but something has held me back from meeting you.
Ice Queen!
I think Nik is totes for real on this.
If you really read his comments, he is actually CARING about these Potties (encouraging a better life, etc.)!
And what Nik has is $$$ and connections. He knows a LOT of people, and this is how you get things done.
I’ve never met Nik, this is just my take.
@Diamond Goddess!
My comments go beyond the obvious. This is between Nik and me. How about letting Nik defend himself for once … he tends to allow only the DA to speak for him.
I don’t agree. I only believe what my eyes see. Nik can tell me himself what his intentions are then maybe I would believe in him. The problem he has ( as well as all his followers who by the way are just barriers) is that I only talk to him this harshly . So, please go ahead and enlighten me about why I write on here. I have a warped perception of Nik Richie because of ___________ . Nik the almighty one should know why or do I need to fill in the blank too?
Side notes:
Let us look at how bright Nik is ( just one example)… he spent over 55K on a chick he was only with for a few months: “Nik’s Chick”. What a sucker. The first red flag should have been in the first month when you were already starting to spend past a couple grand ( no sincere girl would have been okay with taking money/gifts from someone she just started seeing).
Another thing Nik, let us get one thing straight … I don’t give a fuck who your connections are or how much money you have. There are everyday heroes that go unnoticed so please explain how they help people and they do not have what you have nor ask for the recognition. Can you comprehend this?
IceQueen, sometimes, most times it feels better to get it out. I learned after 1 trip to jail, nobody likes jail.
Ice Queen!
I totes get what you’re saying.
I Googled Nik not long after haunting TheDirty.
BUT, (and in my case this is JUST intuition, not personal knowledge) I STILL think he is for real with helping people here.
My own comments on this site are “a nugget of caring wrapped in a candy-coat of hate”. I am genuinely CONCERNED about these people. They are going down a losing path in life! It’s not THAT hard to make a real life for oneself. I see Nik’s comments the EXACT same way. From the beginning, I perceived genuine caring from him in his comments, and actual good advice.
I am OK with people being multi-faceted and paradoxical. I expect Nik to be the same.
And, yes, Nik could certainly defend himself.
I’ve never met Nik, know no one who personally knows him (to my knowledge), and have never been posted on the site. You have personal knowledge, I’m just going on “feeling.”
Very good Nik that was very admirable of you.
Nik how did this dude get sober? I have a nephew that I feel is nearing the end. He’s 20 and been in and out of rehab/ jail since 16 years old. We have tried everything. I swear this could have been him posting this. He shoots heroin, steals from the family and even overdosed the other day and was resuscitated. I’m afraid the next step is selling his body and then death. He’s a totally nice kid, grew up in upper OC. This drug is just too powerful. Any help will be appreciated. Thx
I have been in and out of rehabs and psychiatric hospitals since I was 18, I am going to be 24 in December. Last year I was able to pull together six months of clean time, but I threw it all away. I haven’t gone back to using like I used to, but I am afraid it’s only a matter of time. Often times I feel like I am better off dead, just as the poster describes above. Even when I am clean, the obsession to use is overwhelming. I even get vivid nightmares that wake me up and cause panic attacks. I cry every single day. Hearing stories of people who are able to pull clean time together inspires me to keep trying. I have three days clean right now. I am addicted to meth and Klonopin. My addiction began soon after my psychiatrist put me on Klonopin. I have an anxiety disorder and Borderline Personality disorder. Addiction really sucks, and living with dual diagnosis is just a miserable existence.
Danielle, as I see it, there is no reason at all to give up on life. You come into this world with a blank canvas, a brush and watercolor paint. Although you can blame others, your the only one at fault the painting sucks. The good news is you can can simply erase it and start over. Never give up on the dream, it is attainable. Baby steps my child.
Thanks, I am going to make an appointment at Kaiser’s CDRP for day treatment tomorrow. Between this post, and having a serious discussion with a close friend, I have really just accepted the reality that I do need help and I don’t need to feel ashamed for reaching out again. Hiding from everyone that I love isn’t going to make me better. Only I can make the changes to get my life back, so thanks for your advice also, I appreciate your perspective.
Anti-depressents will help with the crying , and if you are not crying the crave will be less . This will start to level off the up and down of your mind . Assume control , fight hard , you are fighting the devil .
Danielle, I’d love to keep you on the right track. I am not interested in anything other than moral support as I am older than you. Please contact nik to get my email if you choose to have a friend who will support you.
Sincerely,
Ken
My brother recently came to me with the same argument, I want help but cant do rehab anymore. What did this guy do?
People have been using opium recreationally since the 1400′s. That’s nearly 1000 years of humans abusing the drug. Look up the history, see pictures of addicts from the 1800s and realize you are a drop in the bucket of human existence. Then get help.
Awww, baby! You can do it! Pull yourself up by the bootstraps. We’ve all had to do it, and you can too! Here’s wishing you the best. And to the previous commenters, too. Sending good vibes…
yeah junior even asked me for blow one time. And then didn’t like me because told him i dint do blow.
yeah junior even asked me for blow one time. And then he didn’t like me no more because told him I dont do drugs. DUDE NEEDS TO STOP SURROUNDING HIM SELF WITH PEOPLE THAT DO DRUGS TO GET AWAY FROM THEM.
I never thought i’d tear up on thedirty.com but this was very touching. I love you so much nik you really are such an awesome person and i hope this inspires more drug addicts to seek help. DA strong!
Nik,
I want to offer my help to the addicts that contact you. I’m not a doctor, I’m not a counselor..I’m an addict myself. The difference is that I have dropped from the 160mg of Oxy daily to 15mg over a 9 month period. Since I have gained control over this disease, I am nearing the point where I can stop taking the drug altogether. I did this all on my own without the help of other medications or my doctor, who currently keeps prescribing me my monthly amount. There were two things that I figured out which allow people to fight the addiction..
1. You have to realize the sickness you feel from withdrawals is not a real sickness, it is your mind trying to figure out how to deal with the pain.
2. You have to realize that your mind is in charge of your body.
There is a lot more that goes in to putting this in practice, but I want to offer my help nonetheless. I have talked to a few others that have suffered from the same disease…some from being prescribed and getting caught in the trap…others who got hooked illegally. I have helped equipped them with the tools to fight it. This is not some BS post looking for money. My 3 year personal addiction cost me most of my friends, my job, and my overall health. Currently, I am surviving on the help of a few friends while trying to get employment. My reason for getting hooked was my back (2 slipped discs, 1 bulged into my spinal cord causing numbness in my right leg, the other was fragmented and rubbing against my sciatic nerve). I know how pain can be so debilitating that you can’t sleep for days and you actually start going crazy. I understand why I needed the drugs, but as others have stated, the doctors don’t teach you how to get off of them. I have waged this battle myself and know how horrible it is to go through. If my method can help others, I know that I’ve done a service that in the long run will saves lives.
I’m just trying to do my part as daily reader of ‘The Dirty’.
Keep up the good work my friend.
I am badly in need of your help. Ive been trying to taper my morphine addiction with very little success, lots of ups and downs. It sounds like you are doing great. I feel so hopeless and lost
Contact me by email at [email protected]. We can go from there.
I totally need to get off of Klonopin/Valium .
Considering benzodiazapines is one of the drugs that can kill you dead when you stop taking it. I want outta that life. I’ve gotten off of them before, gonna give it a good swing.
My thing is mostly for me, is will power. Basically, please don’t leave your pills hanging around an addict, at least for a year. My husband isn’t abusing, he takes pain meds for work. Best yet, get a good strong safe, and keep all of your medicines in. I’m 3 days clean today. I felt like creeping death..thinking, THIS is why I quit drinking, I’d get sick. Opiates, they’ll make me puke for hours and I’d be right back on it. I lost all control. Time to make major changes.
The new house has a 3 car garage,I may as well work out and punch the heck outta a punching bag, endorphins are our body’s natural high..
Be careful coming off of anything DA. Alcohol and Benzos will cause grand mal seizures, serious business.
Nik please help me with my current addiction. My wife has been upset with me because I repeatedly have checked your site multiple times a day and have made comments which are dirty. She does not like the fact that people are now using the term “chili ring” , “brown eye”, “sausage wallet”, and “panty hamster” and she feels I am passing on dirty and inappropriate terms to others that should not be said about peoples parts. If there is a rehab for being creative and dirty I would take the chance and go. I started saying dirty things when I was young. I stole some of the words from my father. Now I cannot stop. I blame my parents and pharmaceutic companies. Please help me. I have a dirty mind and love to pound on some chili rings and sausage wallets. I have an addiction to this site and commenting with dirty terms.
Ladies, spend the couple grand on your mental problems before you touch any part of your body!
I’m in recovery right now, staying clean. Talk to a dr about Suboxone. Get the HELL off of methadone. You’re in for a withdrawal from these moreso than the Subs.
You have to really WANT to be clean. You NEED support. Go check out some AA or NA meetings. They’re good. Besides the religious overtones. It’s so much better anything I’ve tried. Just surrender and get help. Most people fail if they try to get help alone. I felt like I lost a buddy
My brother is 4 years clean, It can be done. First few months are horrible,
It’s hard, getting clean. It changes the way your brain works, so don’t even let that keep ya down, it’s a disease. Hope you are getting help, so good luck to you.
I’m in recovery right now, staying clean. Talk to a dr about Suboxone. Get the HELL off of methadone. You’re in for a withdrawal from these moreso than the Subs.
You have to really WANT to be clean. You NEED support. Go check out some AA or NA meetings. They’re good. Besides the religious overtones. It’s so much better anything I’ve tried. Just surrender and get help. Most people fail if they try to get help alone. I felt like I lost a buddy
My brother is 4 years clean, It can be done. First few months are horrible,
It’s hard, getting clean. Drugs and alcohol changes the way your brain works, so don’t even let that keep ya down, it’s a disease (arguable). I hope you are getting help, so good luck to you. Eventually after you’ve worked out your demons, things are actually nicer than it was when using. And I believe alcohol is a drug, worse than all of them except for Valium/Kpin. Those withdrawals can kill you.
Congrats Nik
It must be difficult learning to type in complete sentences from scratch. You aren’t quite there yet but good luck!
When replying to a person, try to use a name.
Snoggins
“Oooo everyone watch out, we’ve got a badazz over here”
I don’t wish cancer on people. But if you hate on addicts, I totally want to see you on the curb, puking, begging me for my money to go buy bottom shelf vodka and a bag of Heroin. Keep them lips shut cos you know nothing, and you’re hiding behind a computer. Go pull your Greg and use it to cram in yer azz
suboxone is wonderful. im on it myself and is 6 months clean. i know its not very long, but its a start.
When did you become a beacon of sobriety? What a joke.
Stop being a little bitch i was addicted to oxy just stop getting them suffer through withdrawls and then your fine sstop beng a baby
Nik!!!
Peel back the Wizard of Oz’s curtain here–how do you help these people?
And can the DA help?
Sent nik an email. No response. Been clean for 6 years. In recovery working the steps helping people crawl out of addiction hell. But that’s ok though. Even money doesn’t fix this disease. And dude on Oxy taper I’ll pray for you.
This is an amazing post. Congrats Junior and Nik is amazing.
I’m impressed Nik. Glad to see you don’t just delete these emails. I know you can’t post them all because that’s not what your site is about, I’m still impressed you throw these in every once in a while.
And TAKE THAT ANDERSON COOPER.