THE DIRTY ARMY: Letter from a Black Man, Nik, I am a young educated Black American and yes, I obviously do read your site, guilty pleasure and it loads faster than bossip. However, recently amidst all the Trayvon controversy, violence, and blown up racial tension I’ve been seeing a lot of ignorance, a lot of anger and fighting words on your site (mostly comments) aimed at the entire black community due to the brutal and savage acts of a few. And this violent ignorance from white commenters (or people who claiming to be white, and this is of course not aimed at all whites just the vulgar commenters) has me wondering who the real savages are. Let me start with Trayvon. I know I’m not the spokesperson for all black people but I feel like I have a better grasp on the situation then many of your hot head commenters. It’s not like black people think this is the most unspeakable tragedy that could possibly occur. It wasn’t especially cruel, though it was sad and disappointing. It created such an up rise not just because it made black people feel upset, but because it made us feel vulnerable. The first thing humans do to accept pain is to try to rationalize the situation, for example: if someone gets shot, they shouldn’t have been walking so late, if a woman gets raped, she shouldn’t have dressing so provocatively, however in certain cases, when a person is victimized just for wearing a hoodie, and walking in a suburban neighborhood (which is the first version we all heard) and no arrests are made, it makes us feel vulnerable. It makes us scared for our brothers and sons, because regardless what some may think we are not monkeys or animals, there are no major biological differences between races, especially so when it comes to brain function and capacity (those who disagree, look it up) many of us are good people who feel the same amount of rage as anyone else when an army veteran (who is white) is killed by (black) teens. I found that act nothing short of repulsive and I hope the perpetrators rot in prison and then hell, same with the perpetrators who killed the Australian man. However, some commenters mentioned their dissatisfaction that there was no up rise, or protests. And to these people I say, what would be protested? Black people? So what about me? A black man, with dark skin, 6’3 and over 200 pounds (no itg sorry Nik) who would never commit any violent crime against an innocent human being? Well, I know I’d get grouped with the thugs just because of my skin color (which I am PROUD of and find beautiful). Black people should not be protested because the problem is not black people, the REAL problem if you ask me, is lack of quality education available in the inner city, and the general lack of value black Americans (not all, but many) place on education. And without quality education there are very limited ways for blacks to move up in socio economic status, and this self-perpetuating cycle of ignorance, and poverty, breeds’ hopelessness, which ultimately breeds crime. When a person feels like no matter what they do, they will never get their desired outcome, desperation to control your environment ensues, and that becomes crime. Black men have been emasculated for centuries, made to think we were no better than cattle, and when you look at main stream hip hop and the violent hip hop culture, what is it but an exaggeration of masculinity, a desperate and counter productive way of trying to feel, strong, respected, and important. And believe me, I get just as annoyed with crass, ghetto black people as any other person and I just wish I could smack some sense into them. And please, if you think this is me complaining or pulling the “race card” it is not, you should hear the version I give to the black students I mentor, it’s all about personal responsibility, being self reliant, valuing knowledge, and higher education. So yeah, I’ll get off my soap box now, I’ve just reached my limit with all the negativity and blatant wrongness I’ve been seeing on this site, and I could literally write another 5 pages on this subject and others so I’ll just stop now. I appreciate whoever read this entire thing, And I’m expecting an abundance of racist comments, I’ve been called a four-eyed n**ger more than a few times, among other things, but I just hope the black people who read them can let it roll off your shoulders and not let the negativity touch your spirit, and all others, who notice any vulgar feedback can see it for what it is, which is ignorance. (however I am very open to civil feedback, and counterarguments)… P.S. My “Greg” is more of a rich cocoa brown than purple, and it’s certainly no crayon.
I love my Black fans! Thank you for being Dirty Army brother. Everyone can we please let Trayvon rest in peace already. Let Macklemore save us all!- nik