THE DIRTY ARMY: Nik, I really enjoy your site, it’s great to have a platform where everyone can be honest…here’s hoping I can be too. I’m 24 years old, I graduated with a degree in Business Administration and I have been working in my current position for two years now. I enjoy working out, spending time with friends and I have a very strong and supportive family…all seems to be the way it should, but I’m really unhappy. I can’t help but think that I’m doing something wrong in my life. I work extremely hard, I help around my home, I do everything, anyone ever asks of me and at the end of each day, I often think to myself: “is it always going to be like this…will I always feel this empty?”. I think about how hard I work and how I have nothing to show for it, well, nothing in comparison to others. I look at your website and see all of these beautiful girls who didn’t go to school, or don’t need to help support their families and they’re all living it up large: they have rich boyfriends that take them shopping, they go on trips, they have all these cool things…I can’t help think how I will never have any of that. I was always taught that the harder you work in life, the better your life will be…but that’s really not the case. Some people have never lifted a finger in their lives and they have everything I never will. I know life could always be a lot worse, but I guess I’m just scared that I will always be this unhappy and dissatisfied. I want to be happy but don’t know how.
Happiness is not a real thing. It’s a word to make you feel constantly lost. The worst part is we all try to find a partner and put all the pressure of this so called word on them. And banging rich is not the answer, that will only give you a minimal rush. You need to stop searching, life is not Google. Everything you feel right now is all fabrication in your mind. You are looking for something that doesn’t exist.- nik