THE DIRTY ARMY: Hi Nik, I wanted to say thanks for putting up my post. Dallas is a great place to be and I do have really good friends here. But Nik it seams no one is really giving any good advice here on the Dirty. Now here we are during Christmas and I am still trapped in this relationship. One comment left on my post asked if I wanted out of this relationship and I did said yes to Amber. However there is more to it than that. When I am with my friends I tell them that I love him and all but it’s all a lie. I can’t even tell my friends the truth about how I really feel. I feel trapped with no way out. I have written this post to update my last one in my spare time and have given it to one friend I can trust and who does know the truth. She is trying to help me with this. I have ask her to post this for me. I am still trying to be anonymous from my posts but I know that will not last. And I hope you will post it soon.
I know I need to do just like you said Nik and just break up with him but I wish he would just let go and break up with me, it would be easer. So this follow up message is to say to him let go and let me stop living this lie. I find it very hard to tell him the truth about how I feel. I am just going with the flow for now. Getting past Christmas is hard. And now this relationship is getting deeper and deeper. I can’t seam to stop it with him and I feel like I am drowning in it.
I am afraid to tell my friends the truth because of what they may think of me. I want out of this relationship now before this gets any deeper. I don’t want a relationship. I am only 26 and I am not ready for any of this. I want this relationship ship to stop now!!!!!! I do have someone else I would like to get to know better. He is also a really sweet person and I see him at work in Dallas all the time. Nik I have become the one thing I hate and that is a liar. I need this relationship to stop now!!!! Please some one help me to stop this it is harder than you think. I have gotten to deep with it. The lie has to end!! I want my life back!!
When you submit Part 3 of your bullsh*t drama please include a picture of him and I will break it off for you. Thanks for the pictures of yourself, but that doesn’t help the cause. All it does is prove you love yourself and have no heart.- nik
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