THE DIRTY ARMY: Nik, I showed up in the dirty back in October 2014. I was a manipulative junkie and I ended up here when my girlfriend at the time decided to write a post about me. I was a selfish and at times, cruel drug addict and back then all I touched turned to sh*t. I destroyed my life and I hurt a lot of people I cared about. I didn’t reach rock bottom until February 2015. When I did I was mostly alone and I was 108 pounds, weak and my mental health had been ravaged by the drugs. I managed to recover and through it, I realized that it was me who was to blame for it all.
I had to take responsibility and make an effort to change and from there, I needed to make amends with myself and the world. A few years have passed since then. I’m living on the other side of the country and I’ve been clean for almost three years now. I attend counselling regularly, and I have a job that I love and a wonderful lady by my side. I no longer behave the way I did back then.
I don’t blame her for putting me on here. Back then I was a manipulative junkie and I put her through hell. I know that I was wrong, no one deserves to be taken advantage of. I am truly sorry to everyone I hurt through my addiction, and I know I can’t take back the awful things I said and did. But what I can do, is make sure it never happens again.
Nik, I understand if you don’t want to remove it for whatever reason, but I ask that you consider removing it because that person doesn’t exist anymore. That lying junkie fool is dead and he will never rise again to hurt anyone ever again. I don’t ever want to be that pathetic or cruel again in my life. I still deal with the reality of it to this day. Often in my daily life people ask about the post, if it’s true and if it’s me, and I have to tell them. I’ve been refused jobs, I’ve had potential friends write me off, family disown me, and strangers mock me.
I had no idea that something like a post on thedirty could have such a lasting negative effect on the rest of my continued life. Nik, it’s been a long time since October 2014. Please consider removing the post so I can finally put that junkie prick to rest. He almost killed me and destroyed my life. He left me friendless and alone. Please help me put my past behind me. Thank you for your time, Donovan MacLeod.
Donovan, did you apologize to the woman who submitted you, the woman you put through hell. I need to know you said sorry to her face. Not some post, not some phone call or text. A real hug with real closure. Please report back.- nik